Today I was supposed to write the second part of my “dating a guy with kids” post, but I just can’t. I’m not mad at The Carpenter per se, I’m just…tired.
Tired of always being the one to compromise.
Tired of being the one that sacrifices.
Tired of doing what he wants instead of what I want.
Tired of making excuses for him.
Tired of him being broke and not listening to me about better money management.
Tired of listening to him complain.
Tired of going to watch him play pool, knowing he refuses to come to anything of mine because “it makes him feel uncomfortable”.
I’m just so tired of the drama, of not knowing where I stand, of always putting on a good face.
Am I done? I don’t know. I don’t want to be. I want this to work; I want things to be different, for us to be together and to be happy. But if this is what my life is going to look like, then I don’t want it.
This is supposed to be a post about things I’m loving about myself today, but I don’t have those words. So today I’m asking for your love, your prayers, your help.
This post is linked to Summer Self Love Link Up