Despite my goals to blog consistently and create better content, you may have noticed that I am failing. My content has been sparse, and when I have blogged, it’s about things you probably don’t care about. In fact, my internet life in general (except for Twitter…I love me some Twitter) has seriously fallen by the wayside.
There are a lot of reasons why things have gone this way. Being busy at work, having lots of social obligations, and my depression and general lack of energy are just a few excuses I can give you.
But the real reason is that I am going through some very difficult, very personal things right now; the kind of thing that you can’t talk about online. I want you all to know that I (health-wise) am fine and so is my family (including Caty!), so this is a different kind of personal issue.
The thing is though, that I WANT so much to be able to share what is going on at the moment. I want to be able to tell my story and get feedback, compassion, and advice. But I am afraid that I will share too much. That I will damage things permanently. I have to protect myself.
Unfortunately, the world we live in isn’t as understanding and supportive as my blog readers are. The right to free speech isn’t really the right to free speech when you are saying or writing things (no matter how vague) that someone doesn’t agree with. I blogged about this in the past, how they can’t stop me.
And they aren’t stopping me. I’m stopping me. I’m doing what I can to prevent anything else from happening. From making a mistake that I can’t take back.
So here’s what’s going to happen. I am not quitting or leaving this blog. I want to be very clear about that. I just may not be here as often as you like. This will cease to a be 5-6 days a week kind of blog. And when I’m here, I might sharing a funny list, a lolcat, or a recipe. If that’s not your thing, I’m sorry, but it’s all that I could give at the moment.
I want you to know how much I love you all. How I’m crying as I write this. How much I want to wrap you all in hugs for being so wonderful, so understanding, so consistently here, such AMAZING readers.
I will be back when I can, but no promises. However, if you really miss your daily does of me (lol), I’m am always accessible via email at lifelovelibrarianship [at] gmail [dot] com or on Twitter.